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All Day Err’re day…

Saturday, November 15th, 2014

This for sure.

No, I’m not doing NanoWrimo but I need to do my own form of some sort of marathon/ get it together writing sprint.

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You see I’ve been in a fog and a funk, but it’s time I clawed my way back to the light before the hole sinks too deep for me to come out of. My lists of potential projects is starting to feel like it’s getting bigger then my actual potential so instead of dreaming about new ideas I’d better get to actually finishing up some of the old ones. If I don’t, this rambling mind of mine won’t get a bit of peace and right now that’s what I need most.

Peace.

Wishing you all a wonderful and productive week.

 

All the best,

KMJ

 

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Never Can Say…

Sunday, November 2nd, 2014

A week and a half ago I said goodbye to a big part of my heart. No, that’s not true. I don’t think I’ve said goodbye yet and don’t know when I will. All I know (and a part of me doesn’t even grasp that) is that she left. Gone. She was with us and things were fine or at least they seemed so, but on that Wednesday morning, after strangely waking up to answer an early phone call, she went back to sleep and didn’t wake up again. Nana went the way she always said she wanted. Not long and drawn out and without lots of fanfare.

Little did she know—though what do I know, maybe she knows now—there is much fanfare to be had. As a woman who has touched so many could never leave this earth on a mere whisper.

The loud, pounding, fierce, sweet, tart, savory, full, joyous, loving, yet somehow still peaceful beat that was her life could never go quietly or be fully silenced. It will go on in all who she touched. Forever loud, shouting, fierce, sweet, tart, savory, full, joyous, loving, hopefully peaceful & yes, still writing.

Never to be forgotten. Never to say goodbye. 

She was my biggest cheerleader and now I must learn to cheer for myself. Thank you for schooling me Nana. Rah Rah!

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With all my love,

KMJ

Wishing, Dreaming, and Feeling Golden… plus a winner announced!

Tuesday, October 21st, 2014

 

I don’t do well when confronted with myself. Ultra critical, when I look in the mirror it’s the faults I see first, though I’m probably not all that special in that regard. But wait, it goes further. So cringe worthy is my self-reflection, that I find the sound of my own voice, intolerable and I won’t even do the recording on our home’s answering machine. That said, you can imagine how I feel about doing public readings or private ones for that matter, as I loathe the sound of my own voice even more when it’s chiming my own words back at me. Taking every flaw that was a mere whisper in my mind and scraping it out, long and slow like nails shimmying then quick skipping along a chalk board.

All that said, still, many months ago I went and entered my self-published book BOUNCE in the New Jersey Romance Writer’s Golden Leaf contest. The contest where the winner is announced in a crowded ballroom, full of edge of their seat romance writers waiting with baited breath to  hear the winners words being read by the iconic, Anne Frazier Walradt. Why would I do such a thing? Me, a person with severe stage phobia who also doesn’t like to hear her own stories read aloud? It makes no sense.

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Well, the answer isn’t all that deep. You see, I’d been the New Jersey Romance writer’s conference many times before and like so many others I always wished I was one of ‘the ones’. Those chosen special few who for that year got to get the applause, but more than anything got to have their work read so beautify by Anne. Each passage a perfect literary triumph. So I entered, and this is where it gets a little confusing, because if truth be told,  I’m sure I entered, despite my phobias because I well and truly never expected my entry to get very far. You see I entered expecting to lose. I’m a wisher in the worst sense of the word. I make my wish and instantly negate it with a ‘and that will never happen’ on the back end on the wish.

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So long story short I entered. I entered and I made a halfhearted wish upon my entry, I’m sure backing it up with my seal of doubt and then I let it go. But then, way later, a strange thing happened. I got a call that I, me, well someone by the name of K.M. Jackson had finaled in the contest. It was a total OMG, Snoopy dance and then what in the world can this really be real moment. The Universe must surly be playing a joke on me.  Someone had took my wish and broken the seal of doubt. My system was good and truly wrecked.

But I went with it. And pulling up my big girl pants I, for the most part, slipped it to the back of my mind, telling myself that I was a not one of ‘The Ones’. That this was great and great was as good as it was gonna get so just roll with that and be happy. When friends told me to prepare an acceptance speech I laughed at them, saying what was the point. Preparing a speech took my wish and edged to closer to the dream category and dreams have a way of wiggling under your skin, making you put work behind them as you think they could possibly come true and I wasn’t ready to let that happen. Remember my phobias and I was fine with wishing ThankYouVeryMuch.  So while I was wishing I was mentally working on my perfect Oscar clap and smile for the real winner for when I didn’t hear my words read by Anne.

Finally, it was the big moment. I was sitting with my friends, trying my best to look cool as we were waiting for my category to be called. I had it all together in my head and if things would go according to my fool proof unscientific calculations there was no possible way I could be the winner. I had my clap and smile ready and waiting. The Wisher was firmly in her lane. But then it happened. Anne walked up to the podium and I heard the first few words …

“Sean reaches over and pulls my body in close to his, cradling my backside into his groin. He’s sleeping soundly, but his erection is strong and wide-awake.”

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Holy crap, she was reading from BOUNCE! I inwardly groan with embarrassment as my inner critic raised her hand to poke me in the ribs (who in the world opens a book like that?!) while at the same time my heart leaped with joyous pride. This was it. This is not my wish moment but my dream coming true. There were cameras and eyes turned my way but all I could hear was my own voice telling myself to focus. Just listen to Anne. Hear the words that I wrote. And you know what? They never sounded so good.

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Thank you to Anne Frazier Walradt and the New Jersey Romance Writers for a night I will cherish forever.

And for making a Dream come true.

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All the best,

KMJ

 

P.S. Thank you to all who entered. The Winner of my Creative Hearts Giveaway is Jackie Roberts! Congratulations Jackie. Please email me at kwanawrites @ Yahoo. Com with your information so that I can send you your gift card.

25 years and we’re just getting started…

Tuesday, October 7th, 2014

To my Lovie,

When they ask me how,

I don’t have the words…

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All I know is how could I not?

Loving you is the easiest thing I do.

I’m truly blessed and pray to stay that way always.

Thank you for this 25 and here is a pre-thank you for the years to come.

 

 

With all my heart… forever,

Me

 

 

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Can do! … and winners

Monday, October 6th, 2014

Happy New Week!

Wishing you all a glorious one, chock full of that Can Do spirit!

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Thanks to both Piper and Tonya for commenting and sharing your stories on Jamie Wesley’s giveaway. Jamie has agreed to have two winners so you both will get a copy of Tell Me Something Good! Please email me at kwanawrites @ yahoo . com with your contact info for Jamie. Congrats!

Oh and sidebar nail biter: BOUNCE is featured on the New Jersey RWA chapter blog today with an excerpt. Did you hear I’m a finalist for the Golden Leaf for best Novel with Romantic Elements? Eeee!!!!

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All the best,

KMJ

 

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How I Love Your Scandalous Heart …

Tuesday, September 30th, 2014

How much do I heart as well as admire the folks over at abc and Shondaland?  All you long time followers and especially twitter friends know I’m a TV fanatic so this probably comes as no surprise. Don’t ask me about state’s capitals, but quiz me on Real Housewives trivia and I’m on it.

That said, I am discerning when it comes to my TV watching and to quote the lyrical poets of Three 6 Mafia, “It’s hard out here for a pimp.” I don’t give my loyalty or my time frivolously and when I’m in, I’m ride or die. So I’m giving huge props and much respect to the Shondaland family for the kindness that they gave when sending out such lovely thank you gifts to some loyal watching, tweeting and recapping fans (check my latest recap over on Heroes and Heartbreakers). Seriously, in this society where you don’t always get a thank you for what you do (and Scandal is so great I’d be shouting about it regardless of the thanks) I was truly touched to receive such a thoughtful package.

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How cool is this? And there’s a copy of Gone Girl. How did they know I’m the only person in the world that hasn’t read the book yet. I’m fixing that now!

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These coasters are everything!

So here’s my thank you back abc and Shondaland. I can’t wait until the next #TGIT. I’ll see you all on twitter. Look me up @kwanawrites :-)

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Olivia popcorn. I die. No way, Jack move along doggie!

 

All the best,

KMJ

A Golden Night

Friday, September 19th, 2014

It was truly the most Golden of nights. I can’t thank my fabulous RWA/NYC chapter enough for honoring me with this year’s Golden Apple award for Author of The Year. An award so amazing that I’m sure I’ll spend the rest of my life writing to feel like I’ve actually earned it. But hey, it’s in my house now and it has my name on it so I’m not giving it back. I’m going to write on, inspired by of the glow of this magical Golden Apple.

Maybe I’ll stop sleeping with it and let the DH back into bed in a week or two? Maybe…

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 Thanks once again to my RWA/NYC chaptermates and congrats to all the winners!

 

All the best,

KMJ

Winds of Change…

Monday, September 15th, 2014

Happy New Week! Woke up to the chill of Fall making its breezy presence known and giving this last week of Summer a run for its money.  Looking up, I wonder how long before the leaves change and then the trees are bare, creating a new view to marvel on. As for now don’t forget to look up and enjoy the view you have today. It may not be the same tomorrow.

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To usher in Fall in a bookish way, this Sunday,  September 21st from 10-12am I’ll be out once again with members of RWA/NYC at the Brooklyn Book Festival promoting the romance genre and I’ll have copies of BOUNCE for sale! During my time slot I’ll be sharing a table with the fantastic Laura K. Curtis who will also have some of her great books for sale.  If you are in the New York area come on out and join us at Booth #816 for a fabulous bookish day.

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All the best,

KMJ

Without change…

Wednesday, September 10th, 2014

There are some big changes in the works over here in the land of KMJ. I’m both nervous and excited as I embark on a new chapter in my writing and publishing journey. I can’t thank you all enough for sticking with me through it all (I truly am grateful for you all, the best readers an author could hope for).

You may experience a few technical difficulties while I’m ironing out the kinks  (for a while some of my titles will be unavailable as I get them ready for re-publishing) but I’ll thank you all in advance for your patience as I work on coming out shiny and new on the other side.

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As always I’m wishing you all…

all the best,

KMJ

 

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Feeling Golden

Tuesday, August 26th, 2014

So this is me first falling backwards on my bed in a bit of a shock (ignore the hair and lack of makeup)  and then a few minutes later…

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with my DD showing no shame, doing a happy dance after I got the call that BOUNCE finaled in the New Jersey Romance Writers Golden Leaf Contest!

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I’ve never had one of my books final in a contest and to have my 1st be for the 1st book I’ve self-published is extra sweet. Thanks so much to all of you who have supported me with my writing. Feeling blessed!

All the best,

KMJ